I believe in God. For me, it’s necessary to believe in something greater than myself while having kidney disease. I try to pray, do spiritual readings and meditate and the days I don’t do these things I am afraid.
I’m afraid of dying and wondering what would happen to my dog, Dixie. I think of my sister and my best friend and how much I love them and how sad they will be when I leave this earth.
The days I pray and meditate I have faith that God is in control and all things work together for those who love God. I know I am safe and there is nothing to fear.
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters.
July 3, 2017
It’s been about three weeks since seeing my new nephrologist. I am doing everything right since my visit: watching my intake of potassium, not having the occasional glass of wine on the weekend and keeping myself hydrated.
I admit my failed experiment with sodium bicarbonate leaves me feeling discouraged at times. After reading all the literature and studies that seem to indicate a simple way of slowing the progression of kidney disease exists, I am back to wondering how long it will be before I start on dialysis. Five weeks into my experiment I had to stop taking the sodium bicarb because it increased my blood pressure. The glimmer of hope flickered and fizzled out.
All I have left is my trust in God and His promises.
Jer 29:11 I will bless you with a future filled with hope–a future of success, not of suffering.